Friday, June 6, 2008

Mental block

I met the major goals for this month, and really, my life has gotten back on track. I've taken control of my finances, although from now on out, my expenses will be up since I'll be responsible for rent and groceries again. I have a job, a place to live, and I'm feeling reasonably secure and independent.

Yet...I'm still struggling mentally. One of the ways I tried hard to fight sinking back into depression from the trauma I went through, the chronic pain, and the general isolation was to focus on a checklist of things that I absolutely had to fix in my life. Now that I've corrected most of the disasters, I'm feeling a little lost and unsure of where to go from here. I don't really have any more answers than I did a year ago, and I guess I was sort of hoping that I'd have some sort of revelation once I cleared the major hurdles. But I don't. Without a defined checklist, I'm floundering a bit.

2 comments:

  1. So are you starting a checklist? Maybe writing one for the blog could help kickstart it

    That's what I do.

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  2. Now that you've met the goals, try to relax and enjoy life a bit. Rent a few movies, grab a good book, or just sit in the sunshine for a bit. That's what I do when life is a little down.

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